before the sounds
wish i could
the ground is rushing
fishing for passion
unlike the others
mothering the plebes
fathering their sins
black out in fashion
so i can count them
the bruises in your portfolio
as i awake the
steaks and taxes
let’s live our lives and
lend me the money
and i’ll buy you a
that’s two seats
for moms and pops
and two for the
priest and undertaker
facebook doesn’t seem too receptive to music i post, so i’ll see what y’all think of this. wrote it yesterday, and i am new to recording so it is a very low-fi demo - any comments or criticism are welcome, even if you think it’s utter shit please let me know lol. i need some outside opinions on my sound.
at least i’m sober today.
i don’t even feel the meds anymore,
and it’s not like i’ve felt emotions before
so it’s really no surprise that there’s blood on the floor,
and i keep catching myself thinking every woman’s a whore and every man’s a bore,
but at least i can stop myself and say,
at least i’m sober today.
but again i stop and think, my greatest mistake, praised as virtue
and i can feel the resentments piling up at the bottom
i am an ocean
and as i snag on the rare catch of a bloodied, beaten, drowning memory reeling in to reach the surface and be healed, something stops me and spits in my face, and i drop the line and the something is gone, jeering in the dark, and i look down and desperately grasp at the fading impression of a mental scar to be. stuck in my head,
literally and figuratively.
tradition in twain
to abet the beast
no longer a feast
for the senses
as i clean the lenses
of my sullied state.
to abate the beast
of two evils, the least
yet still lesser than my best
as i rise up and beat my chest
i shout through the void, i will not rest.
till eyes see past the warping air
till ears hear more than what was there
till words speak glory in dull affairs
till actions bring peace to satan’s lair.
i’m burning bridges
it’s all i’ve ever known
in this black and white existence,
i’m either hanging up the phone
or making vows and taking joint loans
eating every pill i can
or staring at the lake alone
on a friday night.
it’s either bright as day
or dark as hell,
and i keep betting on the wishing well
that i’ll see the shades of grey
but it’s hard to keep the demons away.
from door to door,
i hear the ringing
a single dove
so sadly singing
and on the other side i fear
the presence of a single tear
i turn the key despite regrets
and find vitriol pornography
my naivete again begets
my own bitter poetry
a pathetic ruse, excuse for pleasure
yet leisure remains my preferred escape, but as of late
i thought i could make a break from the stale and stagnant lake of mental backup
with a sweet kiss, but the physical backdrop can’t hold up the dams,
and soon i’m on the lam from a man i once knew living inside of you, me.
raising my fist to the wall, i see uneasily.
a slightly abrasive and possibly ironic commentary on modern society
fuck all the comments, the opinions, dominions of thought snapping at the chance to slowly rot away the silent nights of a sunny day on your mother’s grave, and the chance to play the child into thinking the sun’s as warm as they say.
fuck your dogma, fuck apathy masked in belief, and fuck anything masked in belief for that matter.
fuck high school, fuck cliques that last until you’re 45, fuck wasting your goddamn life only being part of something no bigger than “what you did on the weekend”.
fuck holding on to things past the point where you feel sick even thinking about it.
fuck groundless confidence. nobody gives a shit about who you think you are, and who you really are is on display for all to see, so get used to it.
fuck conspiracy theories. sure it’s fun to talk about when you’re really high, but can’t you just wait until december 2012 and see what happens?
fuck lying to yourself. if figuring out what the hell is going on inside your head isn’t your number one priority in life, what is? having fun? if it is, then what are you on and how much for a lifetime supply of it?
fuck people who say they don’t like music. what are you, a robot? go find some music you like and start enjoying one of the precious few pure wonders of life.
fuck people working for the government who are in it for the money, power, or feeling of importance. if you’re in any position, big or small, that has to do with the management of the civil infrastructure of a chunk of the only planet we have to live on as a species and you’re using that position for personal gain, then you deserve to be euthanised. corrupt politician or corrupt cop, it doesn’t matter; you’re a waste of skin.
fuck fakeness in general. i know i sound like holden caulfield, but he was fucking right. if growing up means realizing you can’t do anything about phonies, then i’m with peter pan, fuck growing up. dishonesty to yourself or others: fuck that shit.
most of all, fuck pessimism, but fuck optimism too. shit is the way it is. if you don’t like something, change it. if you can’t change it, get over it. if you can’t get over it, do tons of drugs, but whatever you do, don’t pretend your life is all rainbows and sunshine, because that’s just as bad as telling yourself that life is hell; they’re just two sides of the same coin, and life is a balance: the coin never stops spinning.